Posts Tagged ‘examination of the heart’

I don’t like taking tests. Does anyone? I tend to freeze up, get anxious over details, or answer too quickly. But I’m a good student and usually I’m smart enough to “pass the test” as a whole but what about all those wrong answers? Is the spiritual test pass/fail?

II Corinthians 13:5
Test yourselves to make sure you are solid in the faith. Don’t drift along taking everything for granted. Give yourselves regular checkups. You need firsthand evidence, not mere hearsay, that Jesus Christ is in you. Test it out. If you fail the test, do something about it.
[The Message]

I’m confident I’ve got all the big stuff down. After all, I’ve been a believer for a long time! Jesus is indeed the Christ, died for the sins of the world and rose from the dead. I am comfortable with both the Nicene Creed and the Apostles’ Creed.

But there are those daily transgressions, those small judgments, those secret lies, those exaggerations, and worse of all, those unnecessary comments (that’s a nice way of saying “gossip”).

I really believe the problem is lack of mindfulness and awareness to Presence. I have been practicing the Divine Hours for the last year, but lately, I find I’m leapfrogging through the day and only doing morning and evening. I’m letting my day and my energy get sucked up by busy-ness. It’s not good for any self-test or self-examination. It means I am not consciously looking for Christ in others. I’m not recognizing Christ in my circumstances. I’m walking blind and deaf.

Oh, it’s like winning the war on a technicality even though I’m losing all the battles.

Here’s where I could use some help, some sisters or brothers, to just poke me a little and say, “Remember” or “Look” or “Listen.”

Quicken my spirit Lord.

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After the sermon on Sunday about godliness and altar call, my overwhelming impulse was to leap to the altar. It was not that I felt all of my motivations have been false or that I was under deep conviction, or worse, condemnation (which I have, historically, battled).

No, this time, I knew, I just wanted to make a covenant with God to allow Him to do daily sweep through my heart so that impure motives would not gain root. If we come to Him often and ask for this “examination of the heart,” it is so much easier to confess, accept His forgiveness, and move on.

This step in the plan from II Peter 1:3-11, is a spot check. We’ve been moving along with all these other steps and now the Lord is saying, “Stop a moment, let’s check your heart.”

When I had my little cardiac scare two weeks ago, the hospital staff take seriously even the smallest warning signs. They have a routine to confirm whether it is indeed a matter of the heart, from EKG’s to nitro-glycerin, to blood work, and stress tests. We should be equally introspective in spiritual terms. Don’t wait.

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